hi [10 Jan 2006|10:21pm] heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy lj buddies 1 Bam!

the good and the bad [03 Jan 2006|02:47pm] [ mood | curious ] [ music | Modest Mouse ] i wish my family was all together.. i miss being able to talk to my mom when something was bothering me, but life sucks and then you die. new years was freaking awesome even though i dont remeber much of it i loved it. you know people hate getting drunk because they dont feel in control well i feel free, and i dont have to worry about nothing because its my night dammit, and yeah thats a really big alcoholic statement but im not one, alcoholics go to AA meetings! this years gonna be different, i hope. haha, im gonna have fun, im gonna spend more time with my freinds, because when im not with them i am nothing! <3 and and stop worrying so much. because worrying never gets me anywhere, life is gonna have its shitty days whether i like it or not, and then its gonna have its really awesome exciting days. ill just look forward to the awesome ones. Bam!

fuck ya'll [30 Dec 2005|05:18pm] [ mood | numb ] [ music | AFI ] i really hate my family, everything i do they find something wrong with and i know im not perfect and i do fuck up sometimes, but it seems like all they do is hold those times against me. Lately i cant stand them, i rarely talk to them, and even my oldest brother i find it hard to talk to him. life is getting shittier every day i wake up. i wish i could sleep for a month, if only... im glad i have my friends though <3. I thnk the person who pisses me off the most is my mom, what the fuck is she thinking, obvisouly shes not at all though, she annoys me because my brothers home for 8 days...he leaves tomorrow and shes only seen him once for about 3 hours...i doubt he'll take another leave before he's shipped out. she's killing herself slowly and i cant do anything about it, everytime i see her she looks more like shit, she's totally not with it and i have to sit there and be nice to her because i dont know if she'll die before i see her again. i fucking hate my family. another thing that pisses me off, is my family all talks shit behind eachothers backs, but when they're around their just happy as can be. i can hear my grandparents talk shit all the time. most the time its about me. i do think people need to talk shit, to vent and shit but not where i can hear! whatever tomorrows new years eve it will be fun i hope, bacardi gold here i come, everybody safe! <3 Bam!

[25 Dec 2005|07:05pm] i seriously think i might just kill aim triton, i hate aim! and it hates me. it wont let me download it and i am so fucking frustrated, so i dunno what the hell to do! grrrrr. Merry Christmas everybody. <3 Bam!

[11 Dec 2005|12:18pm] hello, im bored!  1 Bam!

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